Yes yes, today I was the recipient of a lovely goldenrod envelope under my windshield wiper.
First off, let me say that I hate parking downtown. I'm too scared to parallel park so that eliminates half the spots, but most of the time those are full too. Today I was running late to have a long overdue catch-up session with my youth pastor's wife, Beth, and after I drove around for about ten minutes, I decided to pay $15 and park in a convenient 30 minute spot. I got my ticket after 70 minutes and I was there for 120. Tehehe. Oh well.
Tangent that will make sense at the end:
I used to be very introverted. I didn't really care that much about being in the loop, or always being with people. I was fine with doing my own thing. Lately, however, I've noticed a change. I like being with people, and I kind of feel like I'm missing out on stuff when I'm not. I feel the need to talk with my friends and really connect more often than in the past. This is probably more "normal," especially for a teenage girl, but it poses a problem when it comes to the fall. I graduate in less than four weeks, and leave for Seattle in four months. My friends start leaving for various schools as soon as July. One of my very best friends is flying far away in mid August. I'm slowly realizing that eventually I'll have to say goodbye to a lot of people I love. Not goodbye forever, but I won't be able to see them everyday, or get hugs whenever I want (sounds kind of silly, but I'm a hugger, I really like hugs). I am not looking forward to this.
Normally in these situations, I would begin distancing myself so it wouldn't be as hard later, but I'm attempting to do the opposite. Though it will be difficult to send my friends off to school, (I put it this way because I leave about a month after most private universities begin) I figure I'd rather know that I spent time building lasting relationships as opposed to desensitizing myself and letting those relationships break off.
Anyways, here's where the parking ticket comes in: Today I had a nice, two hour long conversation with Beth about anything you can imagine, and though it cost me fifteen bucks, I would gladly pay a lot more if it means spending time with people I care about.
I'm sure the City of Salem wouldn't mind it much either.
So I'm angry at you for two reasons right now.
ReplyDelete1. While I've been super excited to run off to college, I've also tricked myself into believing that leaving for college didn't really involve actual leaving...it's complicated. lol. your post was not a good wakeup call.
2. I just watched the most ridiculously intense HORRIBLE grey's finale ever (yeah...i marathoned 3 episodes including the 2 hour finale today...i hate myself and senior arthritis), and I need to freak out with you. Except you should never watch it...you would hate me so much. haha. But consider yourself lucky for dodging the shonda rhimes is on crack finale episode.
k. it's 1:46 am. love you. bye