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Boy oh boy, lots on my mind now!

First:
I'm super super excited because I met with a bunch of girls today to plan a Bible Study. After about 3 hours of talking, we decided on reading the book Dating Delilah and pairing the chapters with the Fruits of the Spirit. Like I said, I'm super excited! I know most of the girls, but it will be fun to become closer with the ones I don't know.
I've been really disappointed with my walk with God lately. It's like, I know what I need to do, I'm just not doing it, or not doing it wholeheartedly. I hope that having a group to hold me accountable and encourage me will change things.

Second:
After my meeting, I spend an hour an a half job searching. I gave out 5 resumes and got 5 applications. Only one out of the ten places are actually hiring now, and it's definitely not my first choice. Oh well, I need a job, and I'm willing to accept pretty much what I can get.

Third:
This week starts my first week of eating healthy and exercising more. So far, I'm doing well! I haven't had ice cream and have cut down on other sweets while amping up my fruit/veggie intake. I impressed myself by going on not one, but TWO walks yesterday, and doing a weight workout from a magazine this morning. I'm already sore, but it'll be worth it :)

Fourth:
Father's Day is coming up and I have absolutely no idea what to get my dad! This happens three times every year: Birthday, Father's Day, and Christmas. I don't think I've ever know what to get him before, I don't know why this time would be any different.

Well, that's it for now

Missions???

So yesterday, Saturday, I got the chance to meet with the missions president at my church and another girl in my youth group. My youth pastor had told her that I was interested in missions, and I am to a certain extent. I would love love LOVE to go to Africa, and the Lord has really put it on my heart to work with kids, but I haven't had the call to be a full on "missionary."

What was really cool was hearing this woman's history. I've only seen her at church for the few years I've been going there, and only started talking to her a few weeks ago. I had no idea that she had been in the mission field for 4 years in West Africa, and had led trips to the Philippines and in various areas in Asia. She brought some journals that she kept when she was there, and I wanted to read them and experience it so badly it surprised me!

We started talking about our upcoming trip to San Francisco, where I know I'm going to be challenged in sharing my faith. I was explaining that all the missions work I'd done had been behind the scenes, and I'd never shared my story with a complete stranger before. Seriously, my biggest fear is that I will say something that comes from my mouth and not from God's and that will result in someone being forever put off from hearing the Good News. I've seen it happen, so I've always played it safe.

I know God has great things planned for me where I am now, and will hopefully move me somewhere new in the future. I am just praying for his guidance, and for all that I do in my day to day life, to reflect Him and his love for his creation.

"For the Lord gives wisdom; From His mouth come knowledge and understanding."
- Proverbs 2:6